[She should record the way his expression shifts, from incredulous and not quite believing her to annoyed to trying to hide it in less than ten seconds. It's a marvelous feat. Even the sweet kiss doesn't distract him into complacency.
He doesn't like talking about his dad. It's that simple. He's more or less made his peace with the fact that he's now older than his father ever was, that he could have lived a life where his dad raised him and saw him captain the Enterprise, that he has someone else's memories of it rattling around his head, that he doesn't have to be George he can just be Jim. There's nothing to gain from lamenting over a man who's been dead for thirty years and honestly. If it came down to it. Jim doesn't think he'd trade this life for the other one. Maybe that makes him selfish because then Vulcan would be around but that's what it is.
And the time he crawled into a warp core and didn't manage to crawl back out but managed to survive anyway? Well he just pretends like that never happened. It's caused a few fights between him and Bones but he sat through his mandated therapy sessions, he's proved himself capable of command again and if he has nightmares sometimes, then it's good his walls are thick. Because the alternative is to admit that death was absolutely nothing and he liked it.
The official record lists him as close to death, in critical condition but in the hands of a brilliant doctor who saved his life. He wonders how much she really knows. If she knows the real truth or the truth that Starfleet fed the public.]
It reminds me of several people. [He moves her hand from his face, gentle but firm about it.]
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He doesn't like talking about his dad. It's that simple. He's more or less made his peace with the fact that he's now older than his father ever was, that he could have lived a life where his dad raised him and saw him captain the Enterprise, that he has someone else's memories of it rattling around his head, that he doesn't have to be George he can just be Jim. There's nothing to gain from lamenting over a man who's been dead for thirty years and honestly. If it came down to it. Jim doesn't think he'd trade this life for the other one. Maybe that makes him selfish because then Vulcan would be around but that's what it is.
And the time he crawled into a warp core and didn't manage to crawl back out but managed to survive anyway? Well he just pretends like that never happened. It's caused a few fights between him and Bones but he sat through his mandated therapy sessions, he's proved himself capable of command again and if he has nightmares sometimes, then it's good his walls are thick. Because the alternative is to admit that death was absolutely nothing and he liked it.
The official record lists him as close to death, in critical condition but in the hands of a brilliant doctor who saved his life. He wonders how much she really knows. If she knows the real truth or the truth that Starfleet fed the public.]
It reminds me of several people. [He moves her hand from his face, gentle but firm about it.]
Starfleet is a big fan of noble sacrifices.